i want to commit to writing/ making something everyday, and putting it out here, out somewhere, even if i’m not particularly proud of it!! starts today!! watch me!!
i often feel frantic. so frantic. like my mind reads one thing and then immediately flicks to another. there are mornings when this feels more perceptible. like that moment when i’m finally home alone and the outwards expression of myself seems the same but i can feel my mind turning into an alien process and i am uncertain as to what to do. i sometimes tell myself it is just sleep deprivation. i do, after all, feel better now that i’ve slept a whole nine hours. maybe i should set up a new routine of making a morning walk the first thing i do. i’m glad that breathing room is offering 6am classes now because i think i’m going to go. i hope i’m going to go.
i’m finding it hard to piece together my various thoughts. like life is in the living but i also need to be better at the tucking away when a moment happens. off to go teach a workshop. looking forward to it. wondering if this will be a part of my future?? emails to send out, books to read, life to be living!!
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